Tired

hai assalamualaikum . Im tired pretending to be okay. Im tired pretending that Im not sad. Im tired pretending I'm happy. Im sick and tired of all the problems I had. why should I have to bear it all? why me ? Im not strong to face all that. I honestly say, I do not like the way my friends treat me. they treated me as if im 'budak kecik' . . . Disebabkan aku kecik , dorang treat aku ala kadar . Aku perhatikan dia , dia takde pun treat orang lain sama macam dia layan aku . for example, when I say a bit, she raise her voice to me. diaorang macam anggap aku tak wujud bila aku dengan dorang . aku selalu rasa diketepikan . serious aku cakap aku tak suka cara dia layan aku . weyh , aku pun ada perasaan . sekecik mana pun manusia tu , dia pun ada perasaan jugak . takperlulah nak treat aku macam tu . bila kau buat macamtu , aku tahan je . aku rasa macam nak menangis . kalau aku menangis dalam kelas nanti , kecoh . halamak , ape masalah kau siaaaa ? -.-' think of others feeling jugak . tak perlu nak pentingkan diri sendiri . tak wajib pun . Cukuplah dengan masalah aku dekat rumah yang tak pernah nak selesai , kau nak tambah . If you were in my shoes , will you be able to accept it ? Will you face it the way i face it ? I dont think so .
Yesterday takde mood . Harini pun takde mood . wow , i barely see myself being so happy nowadays . i wanna run away . i have feelings too . i cant be the only one who is sacrificing all my sorrow , my pain to myslef . im not a freaking doll . why am i so sensitive thes feewdays ? coz no one cares bout me . i dont fell like i belong here ......